Posted Date: May 7 - 1:33 PM
One of the most defining moments in my life took place back in the year 1996. Or 95, I have to look it up. Anywho, all around me, I always seen people doing stuff that sometimes they do not feel comfortable doing. Or trying to impress their peers. Actually, it seems that it started earlier than that, but I remember a specific time when I started to go to my new middle school. One morning, before school started, this girl came up to me. At the time, I was a freshman, and did not know many people in the school grounds. So, anywho, she looked at me, there just starring at me. At the time, my parents decided to shave my head. Crew cut my butt, I kinda felt like a sort of gangster haircut to me. The good thing was that the gangs where made up of kids that my father helped out when .... So, they had this sort of respect for us. But, I did not totally looked like a gangster because since I was a kid, I wear clothes that kinda hug my body, or a little tight... I am used to it, for a while, I wanted to wear one of those really baggy pants... I did NOT feel comfortable with it. I am used to long hair. So back, she kept looking at me, and I was trying to see at what the heck she was looking at. She finally responded, "I like your head, it has a nice shape." I have been complimented on a lot of stuff(hair, eyes, cheeks, eyebrows, neck, teeth), but that was my first time, it was about my head. Now, for me, growing up reading books about philosophy and Aesop's fables comes with its rewards and some not so good stuff. "Beware of flatteres" came to mind when she said that. "This girls wants something from me..." being nice to me... OK then I will get to the bottom, I do not like to beat around the bush..."Well, since you are new here,I was hoping you could come join us" she replied.... That is nice of her... But when she said the following, I began to have my doubts... "you have to wear black, and all star shoes..." A cliche... for me, it was like being in a gang and beginning follow ideas that are not your own and starting to be sort of self conciuos... (Is that I sometimes have this habit of asking philosophical questions, since I was like about 9 or 10) So I have to give my identiy... I always like to march to a different drummer... I do things because they are the rigth thing to do not because people think it is the right thing to do... I always like to play the part of the rogue, maverick of the group. I can always relate to those guys when the other guys says "That dude is crazy, he does not go by the rules, but he gets results" (to be continued)
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