Its been 2 weeks after Ive put a relationship issue on the table for Mar.

I was not really surprised that Mar would say no to me on the matter of starting a relationship. I was expecting that. But what I wasnt prepared at all for, and took me offguard and not seeing a predictable course of action was, my reaction. I was expecting to be sad or angry or vengeful or some type of negative reaction.But my reaction after about 2 weeks of Mar's answer is: nothing. Nothing! Shouldnt a guy be angry or sad after a "rejection"? I wanted to experiment with myself of how emotionally painful is to be "rejected". But why am I am not feeling nothing? Is all these time, it was just a feeling of respect and admiration towards Mar. I was not totally expecting this aloof reaction. Like nothing happened. Just shrugged it off. Arent I supposed to be in anyway feeling at least something. Feeling of nothing does not count. I was hoping to experience something new. But sadly, no. But at least Im happy that I know where she stands and that I can move on. I many times of people saying that its a good experience for both parties. A particular person that comes to mind is Mudra. With swears words, she explained to me that "she does not like it when guys beat around the bush". Just be direct and both people know whats going on and stop wasting time. But for now, I am content that Im very sure where Mar stands. And how she sees me. I have been giving the gift of not wondering anymore. Not guessing if she is willing to start something. Not wondering that those words of caring and fondness, are they meant to start something, or just being nice. Now I know. But with that great news of coming out of a fog of mystery, Im still perplexed at this reaction of just shruggin off her response. I hope in the future, I will find a girl that will reject me, and I will experience a type of sadness or dissapointed. Because that means... I really like that girl. Come on people. Sadness is a normal reaction to have when a special person dies, and you were emotionally attached to them. There is something not quite right when a person acts like nothing happened in an event of death. So for me, Im wondering who to ask next. Obviously in person. Hmm. Well readers, hope all of you are doing great. Ciao!

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-- "The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil, is for good men to do nothing."